kesedihan melanda :(

ape yg korg rse lh kn bile korg kna tipu dgn org yg konon2 nye syg ngn korg.eh, x pyh nk tnjk baeklh jgn nk perasan sgt lh mcm lh kau tu baek+handsome sgt.weyh kau x yah lah nk tnjuk kt aku yg kau tu baek sgt nk knl lh take time dlu konon.eyy,bangang ah,f**k arh kau,b**i,sial doe.aku benci gile dgn ape yg kau dh buat.weyh seteruk2 aliff  pon x penah die kutuk aku mcm nie tau,die lagi knl aku dari kau lh.kau mmg don't deserve any girls in your life.keje ko mmg maen2 kn ponpuan je kn,x pyh lh nk tnjk baek sgt.
AKU BENCI LELAKI!! tapi xde lh semua ONLY THAT GUY.. so  aku b'syukur sgt2 sbb 1 hari arini kau dh hilg dari hidup aku.kalau hilg for FOREVER!!!hidup nie lebih bahagia withuot any boys...thats the fact for now..i don't need any boys in my life NOW!!life dgn friends is more better2 than any else..FULLSTOP
tolong lh laki dlm dunia nie please be more sincerely to anybody esspecially to girls.korg nie nk pompuan yg lawa, mcm bnde tu bleh jamin hidup korg nnt.dh tue nnt pon buruk gak.
please GOD give me a guy that sincere to know me for who i am.


I ONLY LOVE MY FAMILY +FRIENDS
<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

---love--

i love this qoutes,so much...


love satu word but a lot meaning and perception by people.x semua org akn ade opinion yg same mcm org dulu2 ckp rambut same je itam,hati laen2.mcm lh jgk bile ckp psl description bout LOVE.bg ak lh love can't be defined by a words.love nie something yg subjective,t'lalu subjective setiap org akn akn ade pndgn yg different from others.bg ak love nie x semestinye antare a girl and a boy ONLY,love nie kn universal love nie perlu ade dlm segale hal.love kite ntuk ALLAH(nie yg plg pnting) the love that will last forever, then love pade rasul yg m'beri kite risalah tauhid pade Ilahi. love pade family,org yg plg dekat ngn kite and always ade x kire susah or senang then love to friends ini pon pnting gak,tanpe dorg hidup kite xkn happening and meaning.
actually kn ak nk ckp laen tibe2 plak bleh t'bagi ayt2 ntah pape nie.sebenarnye bg ak sape2 pon bleh own a love kalau die ikhlas in give and take.yg pnting dkm love is intention kite,bkn just for fun or anything else.
kdg2 kn ak jealous gak tgk kwn2 ak yg ade bf 24-7 ngn dorg mybe sometimes akn rse boring gak tp at least ade to rely on and share evrythng and to take care of them.sebenarnye x x effect life pon kalau xde bf tp bile dh abes skolh cmnie cam bosan and nk jgk have one.it look awkward and lonely life without a bf.tulh mse adde dulu xretink appreciate, xreti ng jge bile dh xde bru sibuk2nk cri.ish3 nie lh nmenye org yg xreti nk b'syukur.ak nk a guy yg bleh phm ak walau ape pon ak ckp or buat.and will be by my side in whatever problems i face.ak nk someone yg akn support ak walau ape pon yg ak buat and eventhough die xske ape yg ak buat tu.thats mean he  has to accept me sincerely as who i am.lend me his shoulder to cry on,lends his ears to listens to all my dummy problems.....
its ok everything needs time,just be patient....

cite semalam...

SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO FATIN ARINA

happy birthday!
may GOD bless u.
happy always
lastly together get the 9A+++


act nk sgt2 kol ko tp x tau cmne nk cntct ngn ko sbb ko kan g PLKN.sedih coz x dpt nk wish u.
pape jelh.i really2 appreciate the presence of you by my side,love you so much.thank you for being my crying shoulder when i really need it.u are one of m besties.thanks....
miss u to be on my side like usual and sharing evrythng like no secret between us.thanks also for keeping my secret safe .

kesedihan melanda....

don't know how to say it out,what i need now it only my FRIEND.but i don't know how to express it out.bile bce RADHA cam t'sentuh giler mse tgk mcm mne friendship between KADUK and KASHAH,then i feel that i wanna be at the KASHAH place.i want a men like KADUK/ADAM he is like an angel sent by GOD to KASHAH.it seems like a love that will ever lasting until the last breath,i always hoping for the presence of love like that.bile tgk blk ak sbnrnye mcm dh jumpe that love tp knape ak msti buat x tau je pdhl die dh ade kt dpn mate dh kot.tbe2 trase mcm useless gile buat org laen mcm tu,x patut kn ak nie buat org laen sedih tp ak pon nk org laen ppon phm ak gak cmne ak phm die.ssh sgt ke just accept the people as who they are.bg ak x ssh pon if org laen bleh je buat why don't us.
bosan je hidup nie kalau kte hidup eth perfect not looking for perfect.x salh kalau kte hidup nie mencari kesempurnaan evry people looking for perfect.i also want a perfect lifeand looking for a perfect life.ak cume org yg bleh phm ak dan terime je ape yg ak buat eventhough die mybe x ske ape yg ak buat.....

bosan gile...

tadi pg ak dgr something like motivation show(x penah pon tgk kot) with dr muhaya the stfian,then die ade ckp gak if we wanna do something kte kna ikhlas tu yg plg important if kte nk a happy life.pastu die pon ade ckp buat ape yg kite suke and suke ape yg kite buat...
that are two different things that we must understand.buat ape yg kte suke mean nye anything that welove to do,for me i love to shop its ok for me to shop for hours,of course we will happy doing what we love.but then suke ape yg kite buat tu mcm ssh ckit ntuk dibuat.mean nye kn ape je yg kite buat we will happy if kte buat ape yg die sruh tu.
1 ari ni,i try to follow what ever she said i admit at first,but then you will feel happy at the end of the day like what i'm feeling right now.frankly speaking before this i don't think that i'm a good person i've hurt my own bestfriend,if i'm her truly bestfriend i won't do that but what to do every hman do mistakes.then aliff i've hurt him so many2 times,i never myself on his place if i at his place i'm pretty sure that i'll never being kind to the dummy girl like what he had do to me now.
i love you for whoever you are and wherever you are.
i never love other guy/boy like i love him..........

BUKE CITE LAME...

ntah lh knape lh plak mlm nie ak tibe2 je bleh t'ingt kt mamat ALIFF TU.nie nk cite ckit mcm mne ak bleh knl and at the end couple ngn die.nie cite lamedh kot,,

            *****************************FLASHBACK*****************************

that tyme end of semester break tme ak form 3 mse tu ak lepak ngn fidah and anis
normally port ktrg kt umah fidah ktrg lepak situ coz tyme tu anis ngn faiz dh on dh so it is easier for them to meet.then one time ak teman fidah jumpe aliff ngn faiz kt depan umah faiz nk ckp anis tnye nk jumpe kt ane,then tibe2 mummy call thnye nk blk kol brp.that night ak ade tuition plak ngn cikgu ariff.kirenye tyme tu dorg nmpklh yg aku ade phone.tibe2 plak,
fidah:along,dgr x?
along a.k.a ain:dgr ape?
f:aliff ngn faiz mintk no ko nk bg x?
a:017-*******(act bkn no ak,tipu je konon jual mahal lh)

not a long tyme after that fidah got a call from them ckp x yah lah tipu,that's mean dorg tau dh yg aku tipu no ak tu.pastu ak ckp fidah bg jelah no ak kt dorg.nk dijadikn cite dorg dptlh no ak.
that night,ak x msg ngn spe2 pon coz ak t'tido awl sbb pnat sesangat but faiz ade txt me that night so mknenye xde rezeki die nk txt ngn ak.
the next night,turn aliff plak txt ak and this tme ak x tido ag so that is th start of our lovey-duvey story..
mule2 tu cam sombong giler due ak plus die.
kalo jumpe depan mate not even a word willout from my mouth.die cam better lh jgk.
ntah mcm mne stu ari tu tibe2 die ckp die like kat one girl nie ak pon ckp lh yg ak pon ade minat at one guy nie,die sibuk2tnye sape the date of that day was
1.1.2008
the day that had changed my entire life for FOREVER!!
that day for officially i became his girl.not really like him at all that tyme.
tapi ak cam miss tyme yg die tibe2 je ngade2 nk mnje2 mlm2 bute.ntahlh tp ak rse there is nobody making me feeling that way except HIM....


THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS I STILL LOVE AND ALWAYS LOVE HIM!!!
SORRY FOR MY ALL WRONGDOINGS....
MISSING YOU MUCH...

otak kelabu asap...

ntahlah x tau npe tapi ak rse arini life cam kosong sgt,npe lh agaknye ek??eish,saket jiwa memikirkan problem yg x penah nk abes2 nie.npe tiap2 ari kan ak rse life aku nie kosong sgt x tau nk buat ape,kalau jadi cinderella mesti byk keje kn,tapi nnt byk2 ak pon x nk lawak giler ak nie ade ke nk samekn life now dgn fairytale zaman kanak2 tu.tak logik sungguh.tapi kalo dh mcm org separuh sasau coz don't know what to do baek plak byk keje.jadi babysitter pon part time aje.nk wat cmne nk keje parents plak x kasi,tapi kan ak x phm npe dorg x ksi ak nk keje at least ak bleh gak cri experience even x byk or pnting.the most important thing ak nk keje ialah ak nk pgg duit sndiri.mesti best kan..dpt jmpe kwn bru pon best lh jgk.ak kdg2 x phm dgn diri ak sndiri,at certain time ak bleh jadi lain ssh lh nk phm tension pon ade gak.lagi tambah tension bile pikir yg result dh nk kuar.kwn ayh ak ckp mybe awl bln march jgn time birthday ak dah la.wat naye je,tapi ak tkot x dpt ape yg ak nk,nnt wat malu je blaja jauh2 tapi result HAMPEH.tapi mls nk pikir lg buat mse nie,nie dh lme gile kot dok umh pdhl 3 bulan pon x sampai ag.ish2 dlu mse kt skolah sibuk nk blk umah,bile dh ade kt umah sibuk rindu kt skolah plak.bengong kn ak nie.nk tau x ak bru tau yg ex ak dh ngan sorang girl nie,lawa lh jgk.tapi cam shock arh gak tapi obvouisly arh die tu mmg PLAYER nseb baek lh ak cpt2 mntk break ngan die dlu,kalau x bole tgk ak naek antu kalau ak tau die maen ngan girl laen blakang ak.aku cincang je buat sup.hahaha gaya cam brani je nk buat cmtu,alah ak mmg xkn wat sampai cmtu skali tapi once org dh hurt ak,ak akan igt sampai mati ape yg die buat kt ak x kesah lh bnde tu bsr ke kecik ke,yg ak tau die dh hurt ak.tapi now nie ak sgtt ade BF npeak jadi cmni ek,sbb dh gatal sgt kot.ish bengong btol ak nie.xde keje ke slaen dri cri bf,bkn nye b'gune pon,buat abes kedit+saket ati je lebih baek x pyh je lh.tapi kalau ade pon bgos gak.nk tau x aritu yg time ak balik kg mummy ak tu,sedara ak punye photographer tu punyelh cute skali bile tnye umur bu 17 da..lg mude pde ak lh,biin malu je,tapi kalo dpt die pon best gak comel je.ish angau btol,putus fius ek...oklh dh pnt membebel waiting 4 da nxt post
dada...

bosan...

aritu balik kampung just ntok attend sedara punye wedding,act time tu x nk balik pon coz cam mls ar gak.dh dua years x balik sne tibe2 ari mummy bising suruh balik.time tu aku x nk balik coz time cuti nie jelh ak ade chance nk jmpe die.dh lme kot x tgk muke die tibe2 cam miss plak.ish pelik lh ak nie time org tgh syg wat x tau je,bile dh t'lps bru sibuk2 nk balik.x tau mlu ek??tapi aku mmg xkn nk cntct die stakat mampu,aku nk PROVE kn kt die yg aku boleh cri guy yg more better than die.tapi cmne ek.aku x tau lh tapi lately nie aku nie cam dh gile sgt nk ade BF nk ade yg syg ak,yg care psl ak,conclusion nye yg boleh phm ak

dilemma

emm, pe cte ek kalau lh aku tbe2 bleh t'suke kt kwn sndiri,maybe die x penah pon nk anggap aku nie kwn die tapi dulu2 aku just think that he is my friend ONLY.then ntah ble lh msenye aku tbe2 je dapat rse a feeling yg aku x penah rse mcm nie before this with any other guy.even aku mcm mne hard skali pon tp x penah dpt aku lpekn die even sekejap excpt mse SOLAT(btol ke nie).from naked eyes he just same with other guy nothing special bout him.but btol lh org ckp ble dh ske someone tu,bnde yg buruk pon jadi baik,ish,btol ke?but a few days ago i found a pic of him and i start to remember about him again,after what i've done to try to forget him.tapi tbe2 cam give up nk contact die coz aku takot die ckp aku nie pompuan x tau malu plak.

this what i had read in RADHA
di mana ada CINTA,di situ adanya PERSAHABATAN
dan di mana adanya PERSAHABATAN,di situ juga adanya CINTA

PERSAHABATAN dan CINTA adalah teman baik yang x dpt dipisahkan.kalau kita cuba pisahkan CINTA dari PERSAHABATAN,akan hilang indahnya ikatan itu nanti.kesedihan dan kekecewaan yang akan sentiasa dgn kita.

the point now aku x rse dlm situation aku now the love is needed,only as a love to a friend that i can give,aku x nk situation now become worse.cukuplah just being friend.aku x nk FRIENDSHIP nie hilang just because of my silly done.selama nie aku tau maen2 kan org je,but then now aku dpt rse cmne saket nye ati kna terima ape yg kte ng ang syg tapi kte x dpt....