:)

sometimes we will never appreciate something until we lose it,not only certain person are like that  but i thought mostly of us are like that is it i'm true??me are also like that i never appreciate the presence of a FRIEND till one day i lost her for forever.
for that reason i'm afraid of losing friends,i can't stand the lose of a FRIEND...


but now i lose my best friend,my pillow,my crying shoulder and my everything.my wish for him only one,,
be happy with your choice i just want you to be happy always..


this is maybe hard for me to say it out,,
i on my way to forget you,last night will be the last day i'm crying just because of you.mummy said to forget someone that we have loved that the whole of my life.and i want to start it now,and i will take my time to forget you.you are one of my the best memory ever,you're my first love but will never my last love.
i still love you but only as my friend.

:)

starts the day with something sweets and.......
[tonight i will finish the sentences]


actually nothing to say,but i miss my voci's,they are the best forever and ever.no one can replace u.voci's is like my sister,brother,friends always be there no matter what.i want my friends back.God please them back to me,i want my friends back.
life in uni,taught which one is friends and which one is not,we are all a grown up person,i don't want we get into a fight just because a person that everyone a FAKER.


i just wanna a share something


Allah will give something that we need but not what we want..
Credits to ANIS form this words.love you.


to my friends remember one thing,no matter what we still have each other.
to ama and teha esp.

~lose~

have you ever feel lose FRIENDS and BOYFRIEND at the same time???

i feel it right now,i'm losing both right now,some of you maybe thought losing a BOYFRIEND is much harder than losing FRIENDS,but for me losing is much  much harder.friends is someone that should be beside you,come hell or high water.but now the 'friends' have forgot who are their friends.one thing happen and everything has change.can we turn back the time and all this thing not gonna happen.i hate FAKER so much.
losing a BOYRFIEND you still have your FRIEND beside you,but when you lose FRIENDS you have no one except 
Him.
you can't rely on anybody much more than you rely on Him.He is the best in what ever condition comes hell or high water,He will never leave you....

~nonsenses~

don't know what to post for today actually,too bored and 'hot'.i need some refreshment{boyfriend}.haha

what a kind of jokes i make when i'm saying i need a boyfriend for me now,starting from yesterday actually having a boyfriend is not one of agenda any more.yeah i admit first time i see this boy i want to me mine,but from now and onwards no more,there's a say don't judge a book by its cover,and its true you can't judge a book by his appearance,knowing him even for years actually you still can't judge him. boys  is really unpredictable.

this words i get from 5 TAHUN 5 BULAN [a novel] by HLOVATE[my fav novelist] 

boys are not to be trusted in relationships but they made great friends.

i really trust this words i thought.a boy could be a very understanding friends compared to girls,they will be a good listener,advisor and the best crying shoulder.but the girls are always be the first cause no one will understand another girl instead of another girl too.

the conclusion is anybody could be a great friends either a boy or a girl.what the most important is your HONESTY,no need to be anyone else you maybe make others annoyed with you,just be yourself.don't make other people hates you.like me i hate FAKERS much much more.

those below who are make my life in PALAM full of colours like rainbow

there are much more person actually but i've no picture of them...

:(

i hate you for making my life miserable,you maybe happy for seeing me like this but the truth i'm not really affected for what you doing to me.i'm just doing well with my life but for whatever you have done you just making me hate you more and more.for today,many things make me like what the F**K with this life.you is the first one making me feeling like that. thought you're laughing for seeing me crying and miserable like this,but the truth is now i'm feeling better after a whole night crying for you.no more tears for you,baby.i just wishing you all the best and your life will full of happiness with the lucky girl,truly from my heart.no more heart feeling. FULL STOP.

BOYS ARE SUCKS


second things that making me think like what the F**K with both of you,is that S**T girl you wanna know something you've ruined all the plans that we're planning for your informations you're a faker.both of you are fakers actually.don't pretending to be anybody else,everyone can accept you for who you're and just be yourself,is it harder just for being yourself.
making people falling for the faker you and then show the real who you're are making i hate you more and more.i hate fakers so much,so the conclusion is don't be a FAKER.


FAKERS ARE SUCKS TOO.


me,amalin,and tehaa watch the 3,2,1 cinta movie
is just like a wonderful thing when you can laugh and cry at the same time when watch a movie.bani drive like crazy,love seeing you with linie,linie is so cute.


the fav qoutes


muka surat 89 perenggan 4 
apabila menjelang wawasan 2020,golongan wanita lebih ramai drpd lelaki di mana nisbah wanita kpd lelaki 37:1
artikel perigi cari timba 


this post actually for yesterday

~tiredness~

feeling so tired,and feeling so lazy to write much thing.
just one thing to say that him tweet me,do you want to know what his tweet are,
`baby,are u okay??'
you thought is it i'm okay right now??
yeah of course i'm doing fine,i'm always fine.
as long as you know 'm not the person that will show all the effect from all your doing to me.but FYI i got fever for a couple of days because of you,i don't know why but i keep thinking bout you.yeah i know it is not easy to forget the people even they is our enemy,but now you are my EX-BOYFRIEND so it is not easy as much right.and i thought i know who is that lucky girl that will be your  angel.haha (wanna laugh even nothings funny,want to cry actually)
i miss you the old one la syg,that always calling me,texting me,ym with me and doing everything just with me.
you that always care about my feeling.i always remember you sacrifice your opportunity to fly to JAPAN just because you don't want to leave me.that time you just know about my disease.love you much.


one more thing is  i miss mummy and daddy and baby and angah and abang and adek.
i miss my villa
i miss my room
i miss my vaio
and the most important thing is my fever is getting better
alhamdullilah
bye
want to do my biology jotter and a little revision.

my baby time nie blk kampung ade kenduri
cute kn??
mcm kakak die
hihihi

~sickness~

my body is not in good condition, I got flu,cough and fever.mummy i need you,
i always acting like this whenever I got sick,i need my mummy.mummy i want the hot chocolate that you always give to me when i'm got flu,i miss that care much,you're the best nurse+doctor ever.
sorry this post couldn't be any longer as i have to rest.bye

:(

one more post bout my broken heart,,
seriously  i said i can't stop thinking bout him,i know that i shouldn't think that way but the problem is do it is not easy as say it,he is my everything,i love him so much.but i can't handle it any more what he had done is much hurts that HANA feels.is it my fault for what is happening now,can please anybody help me,come and tell me what my fault.sorry you,for what is happening if you still saying it is my fault.
aunty, sorry also for making your son's life miserable for this couple of years,but the truth is,it is not my intention.a thousands of sorry :(
for now my first priority is study and my health
other than that is not important any more to me.he changes to be a selfish person,
just one thing to say to you,what you did ,you get it back.i just wish you all the best and full of happiness with your choice.


there are no more tears for you,AIN had be a grown up girl,just accept anything that will come as a trial that will make me become more matured and strong girl.if last week i will cry if this happen to me but now not more,tears only makes me a weak person,i'm not like that anymore.


credits to someone,
thanks for lending your ears to hear my dummy problems,and sorry if i'm the reason for you being late to class this morning,and also i wish all the best for you,




i hate you,, 

~aishiteru~

menunggu sesuatu yang sangat menyebalkan bagiku
saat ku harus bersabar dan terus bersabar
menantikan kehadiran dirimu
entah sampai kapan aku harus menunggu
sesuatu yang sangat sulit tuk kujalani
hidup dalam kesendirian sepi tanpamu
kadang ku berpikir cari penggantimu
saat kau jauh disana

gelisah sesaat saja tiada kabarmu kucuriga
entah penantianku takkan sia sia
dan berikan satu jawapan pasti
entah sampai kapan aku harus bertahan
saat kau jauh disana rasa cemburu
merasuk ke dalam pikiranku melayang
tak tentu arah tentang dirimu
apakah sama yang kau rasakan

walau raga kita terpisah jauh
namun hati kita selalu dekat
bila kau rindu pejamkan matamu
dan rasakan a a a aku

kekuatan cinta kita  takkan pernah rapuh
terhapus ruang dan waktu
percayakan kesetiaan ini
akan tulus ai ai ai aishiteru

hapus sendiri pikiran melayang terbang
perasaan resah gelisah
jalani kenyataan hidup tanpa ghairah
lupakan segala sesi dan ambisimu
akhiri semuanya cukup sampai disini
dan buktikan pengorbanan cintamu untukku
kumohon kau kembali

~hurts~

firstly,i wanna say that this post i gonna write it in bahasa 

x tau cmne nk strt tp ape yg ak pasti skarang ni ak sedih sgt tp mmg prangai ak kot,ak nie bkn nye org yg senang gile nk nanges except cause of certain reasons and with certain people.and org yg mmg boleh buat ak nanges is HIM.die mmg expert nk mati kalau bab2 nk buat ak nanges kn2??ak sedih tp ak x tau nk ckp ape reason die yg sbnr2 nye,nk ckp ak sedeyh sbb die nk engage cam lawak je doe,sbb the truth is ak da lme ready kn diri ak if die ade org laen tp ape yg ak x leh trime is die TIPU ak,he LIED to me.

wey ak nk tau ape perasan kau ek buat org(xyah org laen la ak pon cukup la)cmtu,kau bg hope kt aku pastu kau bleh buat muke x bersalah bagi ak kau nye invitation card ntuk engagement kau,kau expect ape ak akn buat kt kau pukul kau,baling kau dgn kad tu.nope wey,ak bkn pompuan yg xde pride yg nk gaduh dpn public just because of the dummy things,yup mmg btol ak syg kau tp ak syg and ak nk tgk kau happy walaupon bkn ngn ak tp sesape je asalkan kau happy.tapi stu je nk ckp kt sini,kau kn tau prinsip hidup ak,ak xkn rampas hak org laen walaupon sbnrnye bkn nye hak mutlak tp ak x ske org laen buat cmtu so ak xkn buat cmtu.so kau xyah nk berangan ak akn cntct kau lagi lps nie,and aknhope gak kau tolong la stop cntct,ak bleh je jadi kwn kau tp ak kenal kau sape,and ak tu bkn cre nk berkawan.what ever it is the truth is i'm still love you,bnde xkn ak lupe tp ak akn buang sikit2 and ak hope sesangat kau pon akn buat yg same.ak x penah and xkn salahkn kau with all those things that happen,cause i know bnde nie sume xkn jadi kalau ak yg x keras kpale sgt.tp nk cmne i can't turn back the time if boleh da lame ak buat(msti best kalau mesin masa DORAEMON ade).nk buat cmne pon life must go on.kau ngn life kau,and ak pon ade life ak sndiri gak.pape pon ak xkn penah lupekn kau and all our memories.

~can't wait~

i can't wait to see him,but i just hope there will be no fight AGAIN between US,i just too tired to fight with him any more.bby can't just let me have my own life with my own choice.i just don't want to be regret just cause a dummy things and i also do i hate you when thats happen.i know maybe not really get the point what actually i'm talking about right??
i just can't stand it any more.bby, ILYDM but i don't deserve you.you have to get someone better than me.but the person will not be NUR FATIN HANA ASFARINA  you know what when you love someone it doesn't mean that you must get the person but we need to make them happy,when them happy we will be happy too.that is true love actually.seriously i'm said that i just wanna see you happy in whatever you doing,the fact is anything you do shouldn't rely on me.you must that no one can replace you in my life.you're the one and always only one......

~ILYDM~

this post specially for my darling,,
MOHD ALIFF




i miss u damn much,but i don't know why don't want to call you and answer your call,i'm sorry by but i'm not strong like what think.and i can't stand it any more.the truth is i always love you and will always love you,not even as a lover only but also as a bestie.but the fact i can't accept you are going to leave me.by i know that you go just only to reach what you have dreaming,i will not stop you from going there.i don't know how to say that.but u're the first guy that i love damn much.even DANIEL i never loved him like how i love you,bby. 


bby,this song just for you,you're one in a million.i love you so much.


I LOVE U,ALIFF






Jetsetter
Gogetter
Nothing better.

Call me Mr. been there done that
Top model chick to your every day hood rat
Less than all but more than a few
But I've never met one like you

Been all over the world
Done a little bit of everything
Little bit of everywhere
With a little bit of everyone
All the girls I've been with
Things I've seen it takes much to impress
But sure enough your glow it makes your soul stand out from all the rest, baby.

I could be in love
But I just don't know (don't know, girl)
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do is working
Other girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

You're not a regular girl
You don't give a damn about the loot
Talking about I can't do for you
But you can do for yourself
Even though that ain't so
Baby cause my dough don't know how to end
But that independent thing I'm with it
All we do is win baby

I could be in love
But I just don't know (don't know, girl)
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do is working
Other girls don't matter



In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Baby you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

Diamond girl,
Only one in the world,
Just one of a kind,
She mine.

Ooh all that I can think about is what this thing could be
A future baby
Baby you're one of a kind
That means that you're the only one for me
Only one for me

Baby (girl) you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

~again~

walaupon bru je lbh kurang 1/2 jam lalu ak post something,tp tgn ak nie gatal sesangat nk tulis lg
kadang2 ak nie cam x ttp sgt pendirian.tp pape pon before that  nk make an announcement


i will try to forget him 

bkn nye ape tp just like i said to zeq sayang 


just wanna start a new life of mine without him any more in my world.tp actually x yakin pon bleh buat ke x.the truth is ak syg die gile2.tp mcm ak ckp ak x tau npe ak mntk clash ngn die.ape yg pnting ak nk die happy without ak dlm life die.
pnat gile badan ak kot.
emm pape pon miss gile umh gak.homesick plak tibe2
mummy ckp die miss ak,ak lg la miss umah kot.
miss my homey,my room,my teddys,my vaio,and evrything there..












tmpt ak dating ngn die,,
hihihihi







kemas gile an,,
one of my favourite colour

miss mummy and daddy

 

miss this kiddo too,,




miss this guy too,,
hehehe


this all are my life!!!
LOVE YOU!!