~last~

this will be going my last post about him,,
so i'll write in 'bahasa'


first time ak jumpe die,ak pon x igt da tahun ble yg pasti nye mse tu ak skolah rndah lg,time tu ktrg nie mcm anjing ngn kucing.pantang jmpe mesti gaduh je keje nye.then after lbh kurg 5 thn kitrg jmpe blk tp time tu ak da jd bdk STF,da matured laa ckit kan and time tu gak ayah die da xde.tp time nie ak ngn die da x mcm dlu,die x recognize ak pon da.da lme2 ckit bru die perasan ak nie musuh ketat die dlu.but that time ak bru je clash ngn die,about 2 weeks.die mntk no ak dri FIDAH,tp ak sruh FIDAH bg no sorg pengkid nie.then die dpt tau ak tipu die ak pon bg jela no ak,tp x penah niat pon nk couple.then mse tu text ngn die as friend je,x penah ade rse pape pon.then mse 1.1.2008 pg tu ak texting ngn die cam biase,tmbh plak time tu die da kna blk hostel da,ak plak kne blk JB esoknye.then tbe2 ntah mcm mne ktrg pon couple laa.tp dlm hati time tu nie msti x lme,ak pon just ske je bkn syg pon.but then a few months after that ak mle syg die,bg ak die nie cam sweet,romantic in his own way.die x mcm boys laen.itu mse mle2 ktrg on.ak x penah tau pon spe family die until one day kwn die t'lps ckp dpn ak.mse tu bru laa ak tau die nie kaye gile sbnrnye.then ktrg cam couple laen gak,slalu jmpe tp mse nieprnts ak x tau pape pon.ak keep secret bnde nie.tp adek ak da tau da.smpai one level tu ak syg gile kt die,and i feel like i can't live without him.ktrg pde dasarnye cam xde problem pon tp ak penah mntk clash 3 kali,tp semua die ignore je ak pon x tau npe.but then mse ak f4 time tu 7.3.2009 ktrg officially off.tu pon ak yg mntk time tu die kt camp PLKN ag.ak pon x tau npe ak willing buat cmtu and ak nanges gak after that.sbb sbnrnye ak syg die.die da byk sacrifice ntuk ak,die tolak scholarship pegi japan sbb die tkut ak lonely kt sini,tp at last nie yg ak bg kt die.but the fact is ak pon tkut gak kalau die pegi,ak tkut sgt time tu if die change,the conclusion is ak tkut sgt if lost die time tu.but then bile ak fikir blk x ke mana pon,kalau die nk change kt mne2 pon boleh.tgk laa skrang die blom pon pegi GERMANY ag die da change pon kan.i thought i should say CONGRATULATIONS to him for making me suffer in the first place.actually he had promise me to take  agood care of me and will make sure i never cry because of him,but he never kept his promises,while i write this post,-_-" i'm alos crying.but i promise to myself this will be the last timei write about him,say his name,talk about him and crying because of him.after this moment this no more about him in my life.i had to be strong after this.and to the other guys outside there,please don't do this to me again.i don't think i can bear it any more.for me now,boys is not being trust....


credits to adib akbar
what you had said about him,is fully true.he never can take care of me,and he is never will be the best for me.thank God had shown me everything before its too late.and to adib thank you for always being by my side.you're my truly friend.


to shah izzat,thnx bro,kau bake sgt ngn ak,sanggup dgr semua cite bodoh ak pasal die,sanggup thn je walau pon ak kutuk boys dpn kau.you're the brother ever,no doubt.FULLSTOP.


and last but not least thank you so much to 
eyhkaa
fazerq
uhant
amalin
teha 
fini
mimi
and also not to be forget
A***I[thnx for being there when i'm needed]
his name is not to be mention someone will be angry.




and lastly thank to my MR A for all the sweet memories,i'll never forget it
halalkan semua ape yg U penah bagi I,and just hoping the best for U and her........